A Lil This… A Lil That

One of my many downfalls is breaking consistency. I’ll stop 👩‍💻, ✍️, 📖. Stop 💪🚶‍♀️and eating 🍎🥗🍊🥦. I’ll completely take advantage of the fact I’m on mine 💩😎 . Slowly slipping off the 🏇. This go round’ 🤔💭 I’m following through on all impulse and running with it.

🎉🙌 Productivity 🙌🎊

A few things…📋☑️

• I’m on the ball with ebon affects my freelance iconic imprint. At first, it was established for my digital services but then 🤔💭 long and hard about what it represents and what it could represent… 😮Eureka! Why not include all my professional endeavors💁 which include 📚novels, 📖short stories📰news articles, 📸 and hopefully one-day photography and 📈📊💻 social media marketing. A whole potluck of services that with consistency I can be great in. Don’t be a stranger check out ebon affects Facebook page, Twitter and Instagram account and if you like what you see follow!! Also, visit ebonaffects.com. It’s my official website and portfolio. It’s still in the WIP stage. I have some many wonderful ideas 🤓

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• 🏫I’m is not sure if I told ya but I 🎓 with a certificate in media communications. Yay, 🎉😊😁🙌 From the same university I was granted another all paid opportunity. This time to finish my associates in creative writing. Riveting yes I know.

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Lastly, I wanted to say that I had several mental moments where I thought for a while I was going to stay in a dark hole. It was quite uncomfortable and cold. I was angry all the time. Angry. Sad. Frustrated. Irritated. Confused. Why was this happening to me? Why couldn’t I control myself? Why is this happening to me?!! Why is everyone looking at me like I’m crazy?!! Am I?!!! Damn it please, Lord, please someone tell me please give me answers!!….

Well, sweet honey-drop. You are bipolar.

🌻To be continued lovelies

a walk

☕August 3rd | 8:12 pm

as an artist i believe we see the world a tad different from others. when the sun sets it’s jus not an orange and yellow glow. it’s a bursting of bright tones, ranging from the different shades of yellow. orange. red. the sky isn’t jus blue and pink. it’s a collide of colors stretching across the earth. it’s fascinating. walking has it’s benefits. wouldn’t you agree?🤔💭

👩🏾‍🎓when worlds collide

👋🏾hello friends. this week (past week or so) is a lil busy. kiddos are out of school for summer, amid job searching and doing what I must to get my name and brand out in the world🤯 it’s a lot for someone who spent most of their life procrastinating their own growth. i’m overwhelmed more than usual lately. mainly because of the kids bickering and fighting over lil words (princess) or ragin over every damn loss on the xbox (prince). it’s difficult being an official single parent. but i got this. What happened to me and princess’s father? well, our difference finally got the best of us. four years of ‘being the bigger person’ in a six-year relationship finally melted my psychic.

i deserve more damnit! i deserve someone who not only loves me but wants to do as much for me as I for them. so, we separated. like prince’s father, princess’s too stepped out of their life with the excuse that he’s ‘workin’ 🤨😐yea, okay.

however, i do admit it. it could be me. but I’m quite sure it’s not. I’m faithful. Loyal. And when I give my heart. I give it. not a quarter. not half. all of it💁🏾‍♀️ but that’s me.

as of late ebon affects is my focus. with graduation around the cornerthe assignments are tailored to career and brand development, which is a lil weird feelin for some odd reason?

🎉👏🏾 want to applaud everyone who succeeded in their entrepreneur career. its damn hard! but you kept at it and now you’re reeling in your accomplishments. sincerely, you’re awesome🤝🏾

that’s where i am now. i’ve set the foundation and now i’m building my castle.

Clientele #1 had a few more edits before the official embroidery design. yea, cool right? i designed a logo that’s going to be ironed on polo shirts. representing creative elegance planning and ebon affects. local advertising is a lil excitin😎

i am in more in tune with my Lord father. i feel there is more i need to learn before i can come at peace with the knowledge that circles around Him. my faith is guiding me. i’m taking that step forward. that queasy and unfamiliar step forward. alone. as it should be. everyone at some point in their life must walk their own journey. it’s a self-accomplishment victory thing that boosts you more than anything.

Check out my latest inspiration in honored of 🎆Independence 🎉Day 4^th of July🎇

🎇Nora Roberts Quote🎆

🎆Divyanka Tripaythi Quote🎇

👑i’s a snappin🌼

☕coffee break

it’s been the most eye-revealing weeks i’ve experience thus far, and i know its goin to continue to get better. i jus have to keep up with what i’m doin. i see the positive changes as it takes form in to a beautiful flower of opportunities.

current desktop wallpaper

i do consider myself broken. emotionally. mentally. i allowed my past to define my future. understanding the cause of my unhappiness is one thing. it’s easier to wallow and sulk in the knowing. but comin up with a solution to end the despondent nights alone, crying with no reason other than my own self-loathing and guilt; is another thing.

it takes a lot to cross that threshold of certainty. relief. purpose. it’s not jus any pass way. everythin believed to be buried or forgotten comes back in a problematic arithmetic (binge on Sherlock on Netflix 😋) of memories and the only way to cross is to recognize, understand, and forgive yourself for whatevea which lingers on your mind. no matter the time frame of its existence.

in a way it’s like how Sherlock Holmes process information. words, images, and mostly emotions flood through me all at once. now i have this truth that only i collected. i can’t blame anyone. i can try, but my conscious will subtly remind me of the choices i’ve made.

it felt like i was holding my breath for what seems as forever and then finally gave in to my body’s awesome involuntary precautions to stay alive. i went through that water dumping minor electrifying feelin… and crossed my threshold.

this quote is from an anime series called Black Butler… ❤❤❤ 😍Sebestian😍

yup this woman here is blooming. my first fresh breath of prosperity was sending my resume with a link to my online portfolio to the local magazine and newspaper.

started back writing. used Tellus, my baby yet to be birth, as an example of my artsy capabilities

that same day i had an interview with the editor. i feel official. the position requires exploring, writing with constructive feedback, and photographing Bartlesville.

🙌🏾woot woot🙌🏾

…all with a possibility of some coins!! Don’t get me wrong, i’ll be down if my article isn’t chosen but the adventure! the experience!

awesomesauce

a few updates:

school is awesome. currently takin the last course before i get them certificate papers😊😁

clientele #1 loves her logo:

and of course, over at ebon affects the inspirations keep coming inspiring all my queens out there!

*side note* 🎶Babylon by Brendan Perry Ark has a very nice opening.

i am a designer. a strategist. a creative visionary and i am honored to have awesome followers like you🌼 thank you 💕

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👉friends👋 i’ve miss your virtual 👀

🌙good evening, friends 👋

📰 again, i share good yet complainee life update. first, i hope everyone is doin well. as of i? this lil 🦗 has leveled in rank. i am now shadow, the ninja

😂🤣it feels good to say things like that. it means the stress i feel is good stress yet stress nonetheless. i am happy… still 👍

spring has brought upon us summer 🔥 one day then overcast and cool 🌬 the next. yes, Oklahoma has af weather 🤷‍♀️…. 😒… i seriously need a new venue, staying any longer and i’ll be dead by rapid seasonal allergy attack 😖🤮🤒🤧

don’t worry for the time being i’m protected by the trusted Zyrtec, which actually turned out to make on its promise 👏😨 you don’t know how much it’s savin my life out here in the country.

now, about that level-up. i mention in an earlier entry of my amazing employment opportunity. when i’m at work, i’m sam and sam is overly friendly and super nice and quite efficient and reliable. she’s a family gal. a home bound single mom who’s in the process of establishing her brand; her professional identity.  it’s stressful, i’ll admit, but a change in diet and vitamins keeps me goin. plus, my crazy pills dosage adjustment request got approved. i’ve been on them babies since day one i receive the call that they were ready 🙅‍♀️🚫 i refuse to go down that dark hole voluntarily. if i want to be happy. i have to feel happy.  i’m all me and my royallets 👑 🤴👸🐶

it’s been about a week settling in the new “j.o.b” 😄 i seriously give it my 💯 it’s minimum wage, but the experience i gain is worth a lot more and looks pretty nice on the resume 😏 ijs. yesterday, i received a call from another employer that i applied around the time i applied for where i am now… the grocery store 🍑🍎🍒💐 i, the too-honest person i am informed my current and potential employer of said current hours. the great news is that the potential employer is looking for day shifts and i’m training to be a closure at my current. pluuuuus… they agreed to work around each other so that i’ll always have at least two off days. awesomesauce right? 😁

i understand the toll this will take on my body and mind juggling family, two jobs, freelancing and school. i am not dropping one for the other. think of this as me disciplining myself. if i use my time appropriately i’d have less stress than i would if i don’t. aside from family and household duties, i’m saving for my trip in august. since it’s school related and if i keep up my reliable and efficient record, the days i’ll be out of state will not interfere with my employment at both locations.

speaking of the good ol’ school. last week i received a zero for the week’s tasks. i didn’t do it and i honestly cannot say why. it lowered my grade to an eighty-seven. i turned in the required tasks for week six, which makes (this) monday the start of week seven tasks then its portfolio and then i’m takin my last course before i get my certificate in media communications 🙌😁🙌 which i hope adds a lil shine to the resume too.

i have below week six task one completed assignment. the word count is between one hundred and one hundred fifty. though, it is short the point is to write a compelling and aesthetics piece using as few words as possible.

task one: “full sail quoted” write a 100-150-word reflection and brainstorming post that explains how you want the world to think of YOU and your brand. What shapes or icons might represent you? Which colors best represent the brand you want to present to the world?

How will my targeted audience perceive me? How will my children? How do I want to be perceived? With each reaction that comes my way, how will I respond? It’s these questions that evolves me with time and experience. My actions determine my character not only for those I love but those I respect and am grateful to as well. Depression has changed my perspective. I learned that life is never fair and to move forward and succeed, I must utilize what I have present earnest and honestly. I want the audience, my family, to see my mysterious blooming spirit through a garden nurtured and flourishing with my fallen and victorious accomplishments. Accept what I cannot change and challenge what I can.

🌼week six task one update:

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clientele update: the right is, or i would like to be, the finish logo. what do you think? should it be fine tuned a lil more?

april 22nd

may 15th

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🚪goin places👣

oh my heavenly goodness, friends. words cannot explain the jubilate feelin i’ve had since the last time we spoke, which was nine days btw. yup, ol’ truly here has nothin but wonderful news to share. first, i want to thank you, friends. you’ve stayed by my side through all the emotional turmoil and i hope you will continue to follow me on this rugged haystack of a journey. so, thank you so much. virtual sweets for everyone!

🎉🍰🍭🍬🍫🍭🍬🍧🍨🍦🎊

don’t eat them all right away now you don’t want a virtual tummy or toothache. princess is my physical therapist. she lets me know when i’ve eaten too much that it’d hurt my tummy later. how awesome is that? free service with outstanding hospitality 👑this queen has it made.

now, friendly butterflies, for business talk… school is amazing after my previous lil downfall, idk, something happen. it sounds absurd, yes, i know, but it happened. i did a complete 180°

i’m back on the A lane, which is awesome because i have to pass my last two courses with a B or higher. not that i wasn’t already shootin for a high grade but knowing the tremendous consequences if i fail stimulates me to move forward.

*side note* i’m eating healthier even ate purple onions. mom attempted to hide them in my salad😒 they were as minced as an ice cube. she literally thought she hide them well too. like seriously, mom 😆 this diet is working quite well for me. i have lots of energy so all-nighters aren’t that horrendous. add coffee and a son whose jus a spontaneously silly as i am and i have a mini breakroom party🎉 #CoffeeIsLife

see too much fun😆

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alright alright alright🙌 logo is coming nicely for mama T’s (my client😁) wedding planning business.

client logo

portfolio is also blooming and i estimated i should have it presentable no later by the first week of May.

 

finished the header

i’m touching up a few media strategy and analysis assignments ive completed in a prior course. one week we had to create a book press release and backgrounder (i used my current WIP Tellus as the subject). i deleted the Photoshop files, not in the hell sure why 🤦‍♀️ tho, so i’m jus uploading the JPEG or PDF file 💁‍♀️ #ShitHappens

backgrounder

press release

i’ve saved the best for last of course. remember i told you that if i ever get one of my stories published i’ll tell you… well it’s not published but my blog did grab the attention of a communication specialist for Z Publishing. Check out the email:

yes. yes. and yes, 💃💃 i squealed like the cute and adorable Agnes from Despicable Me. and then i gave my mom a huge, squeezing all the energy built from this glorious opportunity on to her.

i may have squeezed a lil hard…

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