happy birthday me

it’s been a minute my friends. 2018 has approached and now i’m making my way into the month like a warrior trampling enemy territory. i have faced many trails, testing my will, faith, and heart.  i have seen the me in the past and the me now. we are not as different than as i’d hope. we crossed the same bridges. fell through the same holes. shed the same tears.

the wound inflicted on my 28th birthday gouged any hope of returning to normal. my instincts are heightened, and i know it’s time to jump in to something new. something positive. something that makes surviving livable. and i have.

🌼‘if you don’t like something, change it. if you can’t change it, change your attitude’ maya angelou🌼

no way in hell i’m going to continue sacrificing for an enthralling peter pan story. as much as it hurts, i let go. i let go to what i believed was normal. i’m honest with myself and it stings. i just admitted to myself that iwas a n00b. bacon hair as bubba calls them. level one all over again. i also admitted my weakness, reality and the possibilities. it’s terrifying, i’m sure my anxiety is the culprit for my blood pressure raising.

but, i’m a thousand Kamehameha! sure there’s nothing waiting for me doting on what could be. i know something is going to happen now and i know, i’m going to curse myself a hundred thousand Kamehameha times, but i’m moving forward✌

and that is where i stand to this day

how was your new year friends?