spring time is approaching🙌 yay! i’m ready. so over the cold❄☃ of course with every season change, my allergens are at its highest, nose stuffy and drippy, wrecking havoc all of my face😢 it takes a couple of weeks to adjust then outside fun for me 🌱 my babies are excited about springtime too. spring is the beginning bud for all the lovely greens in the world.
February 26, 2018
some fool stole my son’s bike yesterday. i failed my course for a second time and may not be able to continue the program, diminishing the chances of getting a certificate in media communications. i’m swamped with exhaustion, anxiety. my mind races in a speed even i cannot comprehend. words flood my mind. i’m floating, no sinking to the dark depths of my conscious where my depression slumbers.
i have been doing so swell, emotional wise. i haven’t broke into tears in the grocery store or withdrawn myself from society. i’m constantly journaling, designing, searchin for new ideas to express my abilities. yet i feel a darkness churning in my gut. i’ve decided to move out of Oklahoma to a state where there are job opportunities for an entry level writer, designer, and/ or photographer. i’m goin to explore all these channels. i’m excited to see how far i’d go. i’ve already started working on my WordPress portfolio for each. this is one hell of an adventure. for the first time, in years, i am occupied 24/7. i have flutterflies in my stomach jus thinkin about the possibilities. of course, it’s not wise to jus up and go, especially since i have lil ones that depend on me.
i admit, i have a plan. but where do i start? lucky for me, i have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. i have some bombs to drop. i hope we can shift through my tangle thoughts to figure a plan. at this point, my friends, i’m kind of drowning.
depression (dp) vent 🌼 ongoing – 02-26-18